Tuesday, 7 May 2013
DAY 7 - May Challenge
I suffer from arachnophobia and am afraid of spiders...all spiders (big and small). I don’t know where the fear has come from but I am petrified whenever I see one. I go all shaky and my heart races. They always seem to seek me out as well. I can see them out of the corner of my eye. I wouldn’t go in the loft or garage back home in the UK ever because of the spiders and cobwebs. We used to get quite a lot of big house spiders back in the UK. When I lived on my own (before Rich came along), I would throw a cushion or a big book at them and wait for my dad to come round. Sometimes it would stay like that for weeks, a big cushion or book in the middle of the room. One time, I went into work on a day off because there was a big spider in the bedroom at home. I would rather go into work than stay in the house. Everyone laughed at me!
My other big fear is needles. I had to have a few injections recently for India and Mauritius and I think I’m just about ok with injections, although Rich had to come with me. Its giving blood I can’t do, they can never find a vain and the tourniquet freaks me out. Just writing this now I’m freaked out and feel wobbly. I can't post a needle picture on this blog either.
I was ill a few years ago and they wanted to take some blood, I couldn’t do it. I had to take several valium before I would let the nurse anywhere near me. To the point where I didn't know who or where I was. Rich was with me at the doctors and I screamed the place down and cried. I had to go to hospital afterwards for more tests and they tried to take more blood but they gave up with me screaming, about three people tried as well. The only way I can do it is if I have lots of valium and the only person who I am relaxed with enough is nurse Elaine at my UK doctors. I don’t think I will ever be able to have children because of my fear of giving blood.
What are you afraid of?